im on the super deelo right now at work. so forgive my .... i don't know what. but im sneakin thru as i write this now.
i just wanted to share something profound that happened the other night.
i was (i feel like a criminal this is so funny...that i have to be sneaky to share with ya'll)
ok..i was - i've been really going through it with the distance thing as you know. i've been speaking to the creator and asking for guidance and help. H.E.L.P have been the words and letters i've been repeating over and over this past week. it's been a lot of tears and heavy crying in the morning especially...
so to get to it. one night after a spell of tears..and talking myself down and through the moment under my covers, i said goodnite to him and shared how i miss certain things
i've been waking up in the middle of the night too for days now. and on this particular night, i woke at aroudn 2 or 3 (eyes closed still) to a warmth and loving presence in my bed with me. and it felt like him. and i warmed up to this presence and felt this presence push its face against mine and we linked with one another for what felt like a while. it felt sooooooo real ya'll i can't tell you. and the next thing i know ...i hear a voice and it says
' how is this? does this feel better? do you feel comforted now?'
and i responded 'YES! thank you.'
he felt soo good to me i can't tell you. our hands were linked.
and when i woke later that morning..the presence was gone. i felt a little better. and then i realized that i was visited by what came to me in the form of my partner but had to have been something else...
whatever it was it felt really good, it came with calming energy and it left when i didn't know it.
i just wanted to share it with you. as i haven't spoke of this to anyone i know. these things people tend to be judgemental about.
after this visit, i've started writing notes (affirmations) to myself on the palm hand with my favorite pen. my latest note is
"i will be light"
"have you ever felt yourself going crazy and you tried to stop it? you shouldn't have done that. because it might have been there to save you." - john trudell
prayers to the circle of women who dare to get crazy!
Post by nejahlovediva on Dec 21, 2009 18:01:52 GMT -8
Your tears are dissolving old wounds so the life force of Oshun can penertrate the darkeness to reveal the void behind the light where their iz no pain, no struggle no fight So keep on dreaming with your dream lover man Let hiz purpose and plan inspire u even more to let loose, let loose so u can be fully adored!
I feel you had a visitation from Michael Jackson! I've sent a private message with more explaination. Many have had the same experience you're describing, warmth, holding hands, gentleness. If you do a google search you'll see what I mean. Its a beautiful sacred thing,nothing to be afraid of or concerned about. He wanted to assure you there was no '"hanky-panky" going on Just felt your sadness and wanted to comfort you. There's more in the email. Peace, Liaya