Post by lolovivijosephinapaz on Aug 14, 2014 10:54:04 GMT -8
I am experiencing a TREMENDOUS amount of resistance to this assignment. Namely because it reminds me a lot of what I dislike most about MLMs (& to a much lesser extent, Christianity), which is proselytization. One reason, I believe, is due to the fact I feel strongly that leaders draw more by means of attraction than promotion. In other words, people see in them something they want, but don't yet have personally, & THEN make the decision on their own to follow in the mentors' footsteps. Also, I usually prefer to test the waters first before testifying to others that they should try it too.
Additionally, I don't like giving out my loved ones' contact information all willy-nilly; that feels like a mild act of betrayal to potentially expose them to spam, of sorts. I've chosen this path for myself, & in so doing, I'm still not 100% sure about what I may have gotten myself into. Considering I am not fond of flying blindly, I prefer to be more knowledgeable about organizations than I currently feel about this one. Nevertheless, my willingness to bet that this circle may be worth the risk does not mean my loved ones will agree.
Lastly, fear stands in the way -- fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, fear of not being good enough, etc. Am I a leader? Yes. It's been an extremely long time since I've placed myself in that position, but I know I'm capable of doing an excellent job once I set my mind to accomplishing a task. Do I want to be responsible for other people's success and/or failure? Absolutely not. Perhaps this is selfish of me or self-preservative cowardice. Other options are that I'm either over-thinking or taking it all too personally. Either way, that is where I am today.
I was thinking about this challenge. My conclusion is my tribe is nonexistent that would support me in the way I need to be supported. Some are on a different journey. I desire to attract the kinds of like minded women so I would build upon from that foundation.
So it's just me, the Yoniverse and this sister circle.
Sister Christiana, you are a leader whether u feel "you have put yourself in a leadership position" or not. If there is but 1 following U ARE A LEADER! ! Sister APRIL, YOUR CIRCLE IS ALREADY IN PLACE, ALWAYS HAS BEEN. KEEP YOUR HEART, MIND, N EYES OPEN N THESE WMBN WILL B REVEALED N ENVELOPE U N A WMB OF LOVING SOOOO TuFF YOU'LL WONDER HOW U EVER THOUGHT U WERE ALONE. I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE. IT'S HAPPENING FOR ME NOW N I AM TRULY HUMBLED. . THE MISUNDERSTOOD IS COMPREHENDED AFTER ALL! !
Last Edit: Aug 22, 2014 4:01:57 GMT -8 by starrmama
Thank you Diva Starmamma those are encouraging words to hear. I do believe it's there and will revealed themselves.
Diva, I understand your belief and your wanting to hold onto it. It iz, nonetheless, entirely incorrect.
The work and gifts of revelation will not HAPPEN to you. What's more you don't want them to. Life "happens" to victims.
Conscious owners and leaders CAUSE life to be revealed according to their Desire.
If you don't like the people you know: 1. They are reflections of you, so get busy forgiving & loving them where they are, for your own good. 2. Go and make new friends you do admire and enjoy, and build your tribe.
You WIN this game(& I ain't just talkin bout this challenge), BY DARING TO KEEP PLAYING NO MATTER WHAT.
In everyday sisterhood it's natural to want to help one another feel good about ourselves. In an intentional sisterhood focused on radical transformation, we must avoid this. Coping advice, no matter how well meaning, will only reinforce the mental viruses we're here to detox and dispell.
Transformation don't feel good a lot of the time. Will you let this stop you, as it has up to now? Or will you defy it.
Offer your genuine reflections to one another so that your sisters SEE the Magnificence living beyond the muck we will continue to stir up and release - Cuz that's why you're here.
A wombn in harmony with her spirit iz like a river flowing. She goes where she will without pretense and arrives at her destination prepared to be herself and only herself.
I'm a loner but I do desire to bond with other women. I need it in my life. I'm changing everyday shedding tears and cleansing out the muck. I feel much lighter and excited about this journey. I began writing poetry and will be in up coming book with other writers. I just took a chance to be apart of this project and got accepted. Plus it's paying assignment. The more I get out of my comfort zone it will be easier to meet like minded people.