There's many emotion that's coming out as I'm writing this post. I've neve been acknowledge or showed affection of someone being proud of me. I'm always the one who's cheering you on, encouraging you and delving into your life story but others don't reflect back to me. I cope with the ideal that it doesn't matter of you acknowledge or not. But truthfully I want it. That's the dark murk that's beening lingering around lately. I want to be notice.
Now to change my new thoughts to...
I'm an expressional orgasmic woman that loves to create beauty for people to enjoy my company.
Post by solarempress on Aug 21, 2014 20:41:12 GMT -8
Dear Diva Sister April -- It's not "dark" to want to be noticed, to be appreciated. Remember: Gods and Goddesses are literally adored! Maybe you are not getting the acknowledgements you desire and feel you deserve -- because people somehow sense you are feeling "guilty" for having those wants and needs. I understand because I too enjoy being noticed & appreciated -- however, I let myself OK with that and don't very often hang back or try hiding in the shadows. There's so so much more that could be said about this -- and I hope I don't sound like I'm preaching! Please remember you don't have to do a lot of "extra" stuff; take your new thoughts above and just FEEL yourself already BEING that: behaving as if you already ARE that "expressional orgasmic woman..." as you have stated. -- Bountiful Blessings to YOU, SolarEmpress
Diva Solarempress thank you for your words. When I wrote about the dark side of acknowledgement I'm speaking from manipulation. I did that yesterday "seeking" attention by thinking it through. I love being acknowledge but when it's done authentically I'm freely sharing like a dance movement without thought but rather moving fluidly through a song. When I'm in a manipulated state I'm counting the moves in my head and becoming stiff. I felt empty and tired.
Its a blessing to recognize the dark side of acknowledgement cause I never get the result I wanted...now I know "why".