Post by ebonyroze on Dec 22, 2014 17:48:02 GMT -8
Hello everyone. I hope that I find all of you in well spirits and light hearts. I come to you with a mixture of light feelings and a heavy heart myself. I am a woman who has been broken many times..matter of fact I probably have been broken maybe 7 or 9 times just today. Just kidding..but really after all the the things that have seemed to have broken me I always manage to become remade and ready to move on. I have been told in my mind by myself that I am one who has much love to offer but does not know how to receive love possibly. I think of myself as a great lover with a lot to give. But I find it hard to trust other people. I feel I just haven't been able to express it with myself and others fully due to complications within all of my relationships excluding my children. I find myself wondering why if I feel I have so much love to offer why is it that it seems I have no idea what I am doing. I was involved in a relationship that took most of my focus most of my adult life. It was a tumultuous relationship that I learned a lot from but left me pretty damaged and scarred. I have a resilient nature but a lot of times I "but" myself whenever I want to really take initiative and make changes that would put me on display. I have a fear to be seen, but I want to be heard. So it seems I fight myself a lot. Ultimately I am a very sensitive, empathetic person I tend to pick up on a lot and somethings I wish that I wouldn't. I have come to think maybe these traits are things god given and may be of great use to me on my road to help myself and others. I am here to learn more about myself and about others. I am here to learn how to become more open and willing to allow people to get to know me and what I have to say.