Post by Nut Tmu-Ankh ☥ on Nov 26, 2015 9:02:06 GMT -8
"Whenever you question your value, say "Divine Itself iz incomplete without me." Remember this when the ego speaks, and you will not hear it. The truth about you iz so lofty that nothing that iz unworthy of Divine iz worthy of you.
Choose, then, what you want in these terms, and accept nothing that you would not offer to Divine as wholly fitting for Her, for you do not want anything else.”
-a Course In Miracles
How will you Appreciate and Celebrate your most nakedly Outrageous Soul’s Desire this Moon?
'Nothing that is unworthy of Divine is worthy of you...and accept nothing that you would not offer to Divine...for you do not want anything else'.
I had made the decision a few weeks back that I would take the time around the Winter Solstice to make time for myself, go within, and do some reflection and personal work. This morning as I lay sprawled across my double bed I really felt that I shouldn't be alone, that I should have someone to share my life with. So I decided I would dedicate today to relationships, I wasn't quite sure what I would do, but I had given myself a theme to work with. Reading the quote reminded me of something I had recognised earlier this year: I don't need a good man. For the longest time my wish lists had pretty much consisted of "I'm not fussy, just send me a good man." And it had taken a very difficult and exasperating experience for me to overstand that I was asking for too little: I didn't need a good man (I'd had one in my life and he couldn't give me what I needed), I needed a worthy man. As much as I have put into developing myself spiritually and emotionally, I need a man who is worthy of all that I am and have to offer. Someone with whom I can stand toe-to-toe in nakedness and see that we are equals.
Reverting back to my double bed thoughts, I was glad to observe that I wasn't thinking of a relationship from a place of desperation or neediness. I wasn't thinking that I need someone to fill a void or emptiness, but rather having arrived at a healthy space in my life, I am in the right space from which to invite a healthy individual and relationship into my life. I feel that I'm in the space from which I can now have the quality of relationship/s that I've always desired and sought after, but previously failed to achieve.
In the recent past few years I had felt it was necessary to sacrifice much in order to achieve my objectives. Consequently, I wound up systematically stripping away most of the joy from my life. And even now, as I move into healthier spaces, I forget to include joy within my scope of possibilities. I have to pencil it in, and schedule it. As I am re-learning how to use my time and literally starting my life all over (new attitude, new pursuits, new priorities) I am having to consciously consider 'sensual pleasure' and 'artistic expression' which are serious components within my personal path towards joy.
Ironically, I was doing some online food ordering prior to reading this womb whisper. I was treating myself to some food for the new year and whilst I was putting what I wanted into the basket, I was also keeping an eye on the total. It wasn't carefree shopping! I was checking the contents frequently with all intentions of doing a severe cull before checking out. 'Indulge and celebrate your true soul's desire' didn't validate my shopping process. It made me aware that I was trying to save small amounts of money (less than £10), not because I needed it, but because I wanted to be 'safe' , at the expense of my capacity for joy! Needless to say, I went back and bought what I wanted and a bit more
Ps. I forgot to ask yesterday - Why 'Urth' and 'Iz' ?