Post by nejahlovediva on Jan 19, 2010 12:56:49 GMT -8
Okay I'm a serial appreciatator its official. I look for things, people, places, situations, events and even challenges to appreciate and see the good in. I guess it originally started from doing the opposite and listening for the critical voice, that still can be faintly heard. But az I get stronger thiz voice gets weaker, I don't haveto banish it all I haveto do iz stop listening and stay focused on ALL the good that iz inside & surrounding me. Okay its not easy at times, especially when the dark clouds of negativity seems to be choking and blocking my light from the inside. Body issues, relationship concerns awaken my not enough or what's wrong buttons. But az I look at how far I've come its cause for celebration. A year ago their were 20 things about these two areas that would frustrate me to no end, but now look theirs only 5. And that's the difference in how I'm beginning to look at life, to focus on what's working more than what's not because the truth iz life iz always working, its following my train of thoughts and feelings. So az I sit here listening to the swoosh of rain pouring down in sunny L.A. I give thanks for my life and all the Love that I have and the Love I get to share with others.
Post by divaandrea on Jan 28, 2010 12:00:23 GMT -8
taking some quiet time before i head out into errand land...
want to go buy rabbit skin glue to prime some canvases
want to paint joan of arc
and inayat khan
and michaelangelo as archangel michael as a woman
and a blue star desert caravan riding a red snake of the feminine heart of the world who breathes white fire
yesterday at my parent's house i picked up many instruments--my bassoon, and my mom's 6 string acousitc guitar, and my 4 string banjo
now i have these, and my steel 12 string, my friend's clarinet, my piano, several rattles, and a hand drum in my bedroom. it feels really good. i appreciate these instruments in my life and the time to become aquainted with them.
i appreciate my guides and the strong lights of my vision and the time and commitment to listen to and honor them
i appreciate this space, this ever fertile womb and all of your clarity, fertility, wisdom, lightening, sweet honey, ocean, sweet water, wind, rhythm, the wild abundance of all our ancestors, and
Post by divaandrea on Jan 28, 2010 19:05:49 GMT -8
well, i joined a master musician named alex and we now have a band called blue star dharma. or it might be blue sol caravan. although i need the big fat red snake of the earth cosmic feminine in there too. and i'm going to costa rica for my birthday and 2 weeks of medicine ceremony and ocean water. and i have fucking pms and i'm reading about tori amos. and i'm fat and i'm angry and i'm also just right here. with all of it all. pms cuts the waffle out of the steady if you let it. so here. i . am.
Post by nejahlovediva on Jan 29, 2010 7:19:51 GMT -8
This iz my beautiful life, love it, claim it CELEBRATE IT! My favorite song I've been singing to myself for quite some time now. One day its going to make it into an actual full out song, I can feel it! Off to play Zen tennis its all about going with the flow
I am appreciating the Temple right now. I am appreciating each diva and just loving to see my vividness and mastery and majesty mirrored in your eyes and ears and hearts. Particularly feeling inspired by Diva Carla for standing up as an artist and Diva Liaya for standing up as a visionary Vulvic Astrologer and Diva Nejah--well, I guess there's a lot to be inspired by.
But I gotta go. A cute girl is coming over for dinner.
(nah, not like that. but she is cute and we laugh our asses off together. making apple crisp.)